Tuesday, 8 April 2014

Help Me Lord

I truly dislike being disregarded, taken for granted, ignored, being used, I basically do not like it when I'm not being loved or when I'm not the centre of attraction of those that I love.. It's the honest truth!!

In as much as this is how I feel, I am forced to also take stock of how I treat those that love me! Care for me, pay attention to me, regard me! Do I exhibit the same love to them as I require from them?

I am forced to ask myself this question knowing that God loves me so much and has given me so much and continues to lavish so much on me, I am forced to as if I give back even a fraction of this same love in the attitude of honoring, respecting, valuing, fearing and acknowledging Him, I'm afraid the answer is no. Not all the time! In Luke 7v36-50 Jesus talks about the story of the Simon the Pharisee and a certain immoral woman. There is a show of different levels of love and regard for Jesus. I somemetimes behave like the Pharisee while I should at all times be like the humble immoral woman. 

PRAYER
Dear Lord, please help me put you first in all that I do! I never want to take you for granted. Help me show unconditional love, honour, respect and fear for you! I do not want to take your love and mercy for granted. 
Help me Lord for I pray in Jesus mighty name. Amen. 

Tuesday, 25 March 2014

Dear Lord

I'm going through a lot right now. I don't feel I'm doing things right. I struggle in my mind and the feeling if inworthines is heavy on me. 

But in all this I know that you still love me, you still know me and even if I have loosened my grip on You, you will never loosen your grip on me. 

I'm down now but I ask myself, will God choose the moment when I am most needy and most vulnerable to leave me!! Is God's love for me conditional? Will He abandon me because I am sick!!! I know the answer!!! It is NO!!!!

All things are working out for my good!!!
You promised in your word when you said "Never! Can a mother forget her nursing child? Can she feel no love for the child she has borne? But even if that were possible, I would not forget you!" Isiah 49v15. 

Lord I need Your help!! Come into my heart, my mind my life and take control! Of my feelings, my emotion, my dreams and my struggles. 

I don't want to loose You!!!

Be Careful For Nothing...

Once I begin to worry about things I tell myself I'm going against the will of God. It takes a level of consciousness not to worry. 

Jesus said don't worry, come, talk to me! The Way, The Truth and The life, The I Am that I Am, The ever present, loving, able, powerful, beautiful for all situations, helper, compassionate, friend and brother!! The one that is sooo much more than enough!!!!!

(Exhaling deeply) since this is my diary I'll open up a little!!!! Without giving much excuses I drifted away from the word of God and found myself in all kinds of things, from worry to confusion, frustration and fear, jealousy and bitterness, self loathing and pity,!!! Till I finally hit rock bottom. I found mysel taking God for granted!! By not putting him first being lazy and complacent and the list goes on!! Then fear to actually approach His throne came in!! How can I approach God when I always fall short. When I know I'm not worthy. When I know I fail Him. Why should I be up today down tomorrow. When I should be up and up only! 

The Devil really got a hold of me!! My mind! But I had to encourage myself. Jesus, knowing how weak I was and still am died for me, I didn't die I still am alive and that means He spared my life giving me another chance. Plus He promised He will never leave me or forsake me. 

It's as though starting the journey all over again but, I have new reasons to wait on Him. In one single sentence I'll summarize ; "Outside HIM there is NO life". 

PRAYER
Dear Lord, thank you for giving me another chance.  I need your help, I need your direction oh everlasting way maker,  I need your peace oh Prince of Peace, I need you oh Bread from heaven. 
Please come into my life and calm every storm in my mind, in my heart!! Please Grant me peace and lead me. Help me in all I do for I can't do it all on my own!! 
Thank you Lord because you hear me when I call. I give you all the Glory for in Jeaus mighty name I pray!!!!!! Amen!

Wednesday, 19 March 2014

I Need A Change...

It's been two months and some days into the year (2014) and boy! has it been eventful. So many lessons learnt, a very emotional start, challenges and victories but so far The Lord has been faithful. I thank Him for his unfailing love towards me. 
I won't say I havnt been struggling lately with keeping daily appointments with my Father I truly have been lacking the very much required consistency and discipline. My dearest sister challenges me in this area even as I admire her strong dedication, consistency and discipline and I do see the Glory of God in her life. 
I need a change...I realize I have really gone far an I want to come back. I know it will require a lot of discipline and dedication but I realize I have to start somewhere and I have to start now. 

PRAYER
Dear Lord, please help me find my way back to You. I long to commune with you more than I currently am. Please help me because I am failing and I need Your help, Your grace. I don't want to continue without you please help me for I pray in Jesus mighty name. Amen. 

Friday, 7 March 2014

Change Me,

Dear Lord, 

Please change me, I use my mouth poorly please help me use it wisely, I never thought I could get jealous I realize I do sometimes please help me, I don't do the things that matter the most to me most  times  please discipline me, I waste time on what's not important please come to my rescue. My mind is filled with flashes of thoughts I fight all day please Lord fight for me. Even though you are always there for me, truth is I'm not always there please Lord change me. When I focus on you, that's when I begin to live. Please Lord redirect me. 

I'm here not to ask for money, or anything but just to say please Lord, Make Me Into What You Want Me To Be!!!

Saturday, 8 February 2014

When you've lost "IT"

This post by Joyce Myers really blessed me!! She says it's better to stay in His presence for once you loose it, it's harder to get back.  

Making Room for God

by Joyce Meyer

Dave likes to go to football games when we're home in St. Louis. And every time he goes, there's a woman who sits by the stadium gate, begging. One whole side of her face is caved in, as if part of her bone structure is missing. Well, Dave always looks for her, and she is always happy to see him because he's developed a habit of handing her $20.

A Softened Heart

Tens of thousands of people go to those games. But it's surprising how few people give that woman anything. Most of them just file by like she's not even there. I wonder how many of them are Christians.

I wonder how many people reading this article have passed by someone like her.

We may live in a rude and insensitive society, but as Christians, we're not to take on the selfish flavor of the world. God wants us to be sensitive to the needs and emotions of other people.

Ezekiel 11:19 says, And I will give them one heart [a new heart] and I will put a new spirit within them; and I will take the stony [unnaturally hardened] heart out of their flesh, and will give them a heart of flesh [sensitive and responsive to the touch of their God].

When you allow God to soften your heart, you can live a life of amazing power and purpose. He can use you to help a lot of people. But you won't ever experience that heart transformation unless you spend time in His presence.

Have You Lost Track of God?

“ We may live in a rude, crude, insensitive society… but God wants us to be sensitive to the needs and emotions of other people. ”

There's a story in the Bible where Mary and Joseph took Jesus to Jerusalem and then they left to go home, supposing He was with them. (I wonder how many times we suppose God's with us when we're really off doing our own thing?)

Now, here's the interesting part. Mary and Joseph had traveled a day's journey before they realized Jesus wasn't with them and then it took three days to find him. Three days! The message here is that it's easier to lose that special presence of God than it is to get it back once we've lost it.

We need to be careful to remain in the presence of God.

How to Remain in God's Presence

There are a lot of ways you can make God feel at home in your heart.

First of all, you can simply be obedient to His Word. Being willing to back off from behaviors that offend God is the number one sign of spiritual maturity. It shows you care about what He thinks and feels about your behavior.

Not only is how you behave important to God, but what you say is too.

From Genesis to Revelation the Bible says a lot about the power of words. Psalm 22:3 tells us that God inhabits the praises of His people. If we use our words to give thanks to God and lift up other people, we'll be blessed.

What's the Most Important Thing?

The thing that is more important to God than anything in our daily walk is having a good, solid relationship with Him. But beyond that, it's how we treat people. It doesn't matter how many scriptures you can quote if you aren't treating people well.

First John 4:12 tells us: No man has at any time [yet] seen God. But if we love one another, God abides (lives and remains) in us...

Did you get that? Where there's love, God abides.

Some of you are so frustrated in life and in ministry because you feel like there's so much more in you to give but you can't seem to get it out. I'm telling you, when you begin to love people at a greater level, you'll experience God's anointing at a greater level.

As Christians, we need to stop worrying about what we need and start filling other people's needs.

Remember the woman at the football stadium? Now think about someone you see on a daily or weekly basis and ask yourself one question: What can I do to let them know God loves them?

PRAYER

Dear Lord please help me to get back, I am lost, and I miss you! I'm not the same and I want to come back home. I pray in Jesus mighty name. Amen. 

Wednesday, 29 January 2014

Straight from my heart.

When I think of the times in my life when I spent more time reading my bible and meditating on the Word, fellowshiping and getting to know the Spirit more, focusing, pondering and caring more about what God thought about me than what people thought about me, I remember feeling full, energized, happy, empowered, loved,  fulfilled, excited! I smiled a lot more and I always felt confident and accomplished. 

Times like now when my focus has shifted whether for the right reasons, or for just being plain lazy or otherwise, or because of my children, husband and lots of other responsibilities, I know like right now, I feel lost, depleted, sick, the noise in my head is louder, I'm more anxious, afraid, I'm exhausted I feel under accomplished I feel like I'm far far away, I eat a lot more but still feel hungry. I crave plenty re assurance but still feel insecure, feel powerless, guilty, lost, more sad than happy most of all I feel empty. 

Now all I want is You Lord. Please help me get back on my feet. 

Prayer. 

Dear Lord, please you promised in you word that the righteous person may have many troubles, but the LORD delivers him from them all; 
You promised never to leave me or forsake me. You said to call on you and you will answer...
Please LORD hear my call and answer me and rescue me from this distance, this loneliness, and emptiness. Bring me back to your awesome presence and set my feet on the right path. My own arm has failed me. Here I am Lord crying for your help. Help me for I come to you in the name of Jesus Christ your only Son. Amen. 


References: Jeremiah 33:3, Psalm 34:19