...No Matter What

Somtimes when I feel like I have been a "good girl" it's a lot easier for me to come into Gods presence. It is easier for me to talk to (pray) and commune with Him. I couldn't be more wrong. 

Isaiah 64v6 But we are all as an unclean thing, and all our righteousness are as filthy rags; and we all do fade as a leaf; and our iniquities, like the wind, have taken us away. 

Other times, when I haven't been so good, probably not been reading my Bible and praying or maybe I said things I know I ought not to have said or did things I had no business doing, my first response is usually like, "I'm sure God is angry with me." I tend to run and hide (like good ol' Adam and Eve) or even stay away from God. 

However, I am learning that the Love of God is all encompassing. He doesn't love like we do. His love for us does not waver. He loves ALL of me and His love bids me to come Now!! 

Isaiah 1v18 Come now, and let us reason together, saith The Lord: though your sins be as scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they be red like crimson, they shall be as wool. 

Gods love is so strong and David understood this perfectly; that even when he sinned and wronged God he knew better than to stay away or hide. He (David) came clean and opened up to his Maker! Psalm 51. 

I have decided to do things differently now. Proverbs 3v5&6 v5 Trust in The Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. v6 In ALL your ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct your paths. NKJV

Joshua 1v8 Study this book of instruction continually. Meditate on it day and night so you will be sure to obey everything written in it. Only then will you prosper and succeed in all you do. NLT

No matter if I do right or wrong, No matter how I feel, tired or strong. These things will be at the back of my mind. 

•Never take my eyes off your word for it is the map that guides me back to you when I'm lost. 

•Never stop talking to you about what is going on with me for I can successfully hide from everyone else but I can't hide from you. 

•Never stop believing and trusting that You truly love me. And nothing can separate me from your love. 

I should stay in His love now and always NO MATTER WHAT!

PRAYER

Dear Lord, thank You, for I am convinced that You will never loosen your grip on me. Dear Father help me never to loosen my grip on You. No matter what. For I pray in Jesus mighty name. Amen. 

Small Is Good

Everything great and mighty has it's roots  in something small.

Jesus said in Luke 13v18-21. "What is the kingdom of God like? (in all it's enormity). How can I illustrate it? v19. It is like a tiny mustard seed that grows and becomes a tree, and the birds make nests in its branches. 

v20. He also asked, "What else is the Kingdom of God like? v21. It is like the yeast a woman used in making bread. Even though she put only a little yeast in 3measures of flour, it permeated every part of the dough." NLT. 

I lost my balance for months. Got distracted and lost focus for a long while (since September, 2013. Since then, keeping my daily dilligence has been war between my reality and my will). 

I find myself opportuned to start again from scratch and to be quite honest looking at things from where I stand could be discouraging because I'm small right now. Prayers are short, vision is pretty much none but I thank God for His word of encouragement through our Lord Jesus Christ that small isn't bad at all; in fact small can be a kingdom in the end. 

PRAYER

Dear Lord, thank You for another begining that even though small, I can still grow to become mighty. I am willing please Lord furnish me with vision, so I can see and focus on where you are taking me to. Crystal clear vision so I can see what I can be through your own eyes, for it will keep me hopeful even as I press through every trial and challenge. Father I know you are always with me through your Holy Spirit but Lord please keep me in full awareness of your presence so, I can have the confidence in the support of your presence always for I know my strength can't take me far. Help me to be more disciplined, focused and consistent. 

Finally my Lord, my Maker you know me if I lack any thing please help me up lift me and hide me in your perfection. 

Thank You so much for the gift of life and another chance; Thank You so much for the gift of your presence through Your Holy Spirit. Please help me to work in line with Him and not against Him that I may fall in full alignment of your will for me. 

Thank you my father my maker.  For I pray in Jesus mighty name. Amen. 

Help Me Lord

I truly dislike being disregarded, taken for granted, ignored, being used, I basically do not like it when I'm not being loved or when I'm not the centre of attraction of those that I love.. It's the honest truth!!

In as much as this is how I feel, I am forced to also take stock of how I treat those that love me! Care for me, pay attention to me, regard me! Do I exhibit the same love to them as I require from them?

I am forced to ask myself this question knowing that God loves me so much and has given me so much and continues to lavish so much on me, I am forced to as if I give back even a fraction of this same love in the attitude of honoring, respecting, valuing, fearing and acknowledging Him, I'm afraid the answer is no. Not all the time! In Luke 7v36-50 Jesus talks about the story of the Simon the Pharisee and a certain immoral woman. There is a show of different levels of love and regard for Jesus. I somemetimes behave like the Pharisee while I should at all times be like the humble immoral woman. 

PRAYER

Dear Lord, please help me put you first in all that I do! I never want to take you for granted. Help me show unconditional love, honour, respect and fear for you! I do not want to take your love and mercy for granted. 

Help me Lord for I pray in Jesus mighty name. Amen. 

Dear Lord

I'm going through a lot right now. I don't feel I'm doing things right. I struggle in my mind and the feeling if inworthines is heavy on me. 

But in all this I know that you still love me, you still know me and even if I have loosened my grip on You, you will never loosen your grip on me. 

I'm down now but I ask myself, will God choose the moment when I am most needy and most vulnerable to leave me!! Is God's love for me conditional? Will He abandon me because I am sick!!! I know the answer!!! It is NO!!!!

All things are working out for my good!!!

You promised in your word when you said "Never! Can a mother forget her nursing child? Can she feel no love for the child she has borne? But even if that were possible, I would not forget you!" Isiah 49v15. 

Lord I need Your help!! Come into my heart, my mind my life and take control! Of my feelings, my emotion, my dreams and my struggles. 

I don't want to loose You!!!

Be Careful For Nothing...

Once I begin to worry about things I tell myself I'm going against the will of God. It takes a level of consciousness not to worry. 

Jesus said don't worry, come, talk to me! The Way, The Truth and The life, The I Am that I Am, The ever present, loving, able, powerful, beautiful for all situations, helper, compassionate, friend and brother!! The one that is sooo much more than enough!!!!!

(Exhaling deeply) since this is my diary I'll open up a little!!!! Without giving much excuses I drifted away from the word of God and found myself in all kinds of things, from worry to confusion, frustration and fear, jealousy and bitterness, self loathing and pity,!!! Till I finally hit rock bottom. I found mysel taking God for granted!! By not putting him first being lazy and complacent and the list goes on!! Then fear to actually approach His throne came in!! How can I approach God when I always fall short. When I know I'm not worthy. When I know I fail Him. Why should I be up today down tomorrow. When I should be up and up only! 

The Devil really got a hold of me!! My mind! But I had to encourage myself. Jesus, knowing how weak I was and still am died for me, I didn't die I still am alive and that means He spared my life giving me another chance. Plus He promised He will never leave me or forsake me. 

It's as though starting the journey all over again but, I have new reasons to wait on Him. In one single sentence I'll summarize ; "Outside HIM there is NO life". 

PRAYER

Dear Lord, thank you for giving me another chance.  I need your help, I need your direction oh everlasting way maker,  I need your peace oh Prince of Peace, I need you oh Bread from heaven. 

Please come into my life and calm every storm in my mind, in my heart!! Please Grant me peace and lead me. Help me in all I do for I can't do it all on my own!! 

Thank you Lord because you hear me when I call. I give you all the Glory for in Jeaus mighty name I pray!!!!!! Amen!

I Need A Change...

It's been two months and some days into the year (2014) and boy! has it been eventful. So many lessons learnt, a very emotional start, challenges and victories but so far The Lord has been faithful. I thank Him for his unfailing love towards me. 

I won't say I havnt been struggling lately with keeping daily appointments with my Father I truly have been lacking the very much required consistency and discipline. My dearest sister challenges me in this area even as I admire her strong dedication, consistency and discipline and I do see the Glory of God in her life. 

I need a change...I realize I have really gone far an I want to come back. I know it will require a lot of discipline and dedication but I realize I have to start somewhere and I have to start now. 

PRAYER

Dear Lord, please help me find my way back to You. I long to commune with you more than I currently am. Please help me because I am failing and I need Your help, Your grace. I don't want to continue without you please help me for I pray in Jesus mighty name. Amen. 

Change Me,

Dear Lord, 

Please change me, I use my mouth poorly please help me use it wisely, I never thought I could get jealous I realize I do sometimes please help me, I don't do the things that matter the most to me most  times  please discipline me, I waste time on what's not important please come to my rescue. My mind is filled with flashes of thoughts I fight all day please Lord fight for me. Even though you are always there for me, truth is I'm not always there please Lord change me. When I focus on you, that's when I begin to live. Please Lord redirect me. 

I'm here not to ask for money, or anything but just to say please Lord, Make Me Into What You Want Me To Be!!!