Time wasting

Hello Dairy, 

It's been long, I know, a lot has happened I wish I wrote down.... I haven't been on fire for Christ that much lately to say the truth but that doesn't go without saying that I know He is always with me. 

Today I want to talk about time wasting. I woke up this morning at 3.45am and I picked up my phone which has now become a habit and I began to scroll through social media. I had more important things to do.. And just like that one solid hour went by...

I've wasted much more time than that in the past but this particular hour wasted felt like days wasted. Maybe because these days, time for me has all of a sudden become so precious. 

Yesterday, I was upset and destabilized for hours. Someone hurt my feelings. And when I think of it, it felt like I really lost a lot. 

So right here right now, I want to make conscious efforts not to allow myself waste time. There's so much to achieve and time keeps ticking. I want to invest my time on what really matters the most- Fellowship with God, reading, studying and most of all building up myself.  

It's refreshing being back and I'll like to end today's entry with a little prayer from my heart. 

PRAYER. 

Dear Father, 

there's no one like you. I appreciate you because you are awesome and mighty and nothing is impossible with you. That's so awesome!!! I bless your name. Dear Father I need your help, teach me to use my time wisely, rightly and carefully knowing time is so precious.

Help me put you first, please everyday come into my heart and refresh me. For every disappointment, please encourage me. Instead of hate fill me with love, where my mind is filthy with the ugliness of bitterness fill me with purity of heart. But above all may I continue to please you and find favor in your sight. 

Let me not walk out of my room without your covering favor and grace. Use me to bless others today and strengthen me for today's work. Begin a new work in me  for I pray in the name of your precious Son, Jesus Christ. 

Amen. 

You are my hiding place

Sometimes, when I consider all my faults and shortcomings I feel so sad and depressed. My limitations and constant repetition of the same old mistakes, honestly I get so depressed. 

But, when I also consider the one who is perfect in every way, mighty, powerful, glorious and  great. The one who cannot be defined by words because of His awesome largesse. To think that he is here for me and with me and He loves me dearly, I can trust in and depend on Him because He is faithful. 

I just run and I hide myself in Him. I hide my faults, failures and shortcomings. I hide myself early in the morning. I hide in His glory and grace and in the fidelity of His character. I hide myself in Him. 

When I am in Him I am safe, strong and confident. I know I can do ALL THINGS because His Spirit doesn't give fear. I hide in Him. 

The days I strayed away, I remember the fear, loneliness confusion and vulnerability that consumed me! Oh how I thank Him for His love that calls me back. It brings me back time and time and again setting my feet on solid rock and steadying me as I go. 

Today I hide myself in You Lord. I pray that tomorrow when I wake I'll do the same again, and HIDE MYSELF IN YOU!!!

I AM WILLING

"Lord if you are willing you can heal me and make me clean" Jesus reached out and touched him. "I am willing" he said "Be Healed" Luke 5v12-13. 

Sometimes I feel like God is just tired of me, because I don't always get things right. I couldn't be more wrong!!! 

"Never! Can a mother forget her nursing child? Can she feel no love for the child she has borne? But even if that were possible, I will never forget you! Isaiah49v15.  

I woke up feeling like God can't possibly care for me. But I thank Him for His word. It lifted me and filled me. No matter what God can Never leave or forsake me. 

What a wonderful feeling. Thank you Father. Thank you Jesus. Thank you Holy Spirit. 

Searched all over....

I've always wanted a best friend, someone with whom I could share my time and love, my strengths and weaknesses, in whom I could trust, rely and confide in. Someone I could be completely honest and comfortable with. 

I go the extra mile to be nice, generous and friendly but then I realized that what I was searching for was more than a best friend. My heart was searching for Christ. 

I guess I was searching in the wrong places, I don't know. I guess I felt I needed physical companionship. Maybe I didn't even know what I wanted... 

But one thing is for sure there was an emptiness that needed to be filled. I searched and searched till I lost track of my God. Used, abused, taken advantage of, disappointed, disgusted with my self, sad, tired confused and defeated I decided to invest some time in his presence. 

I'm glad that no matter how many times I fail or fall He is always ready to pick me up, and show me His love. 

It's true I was lost. But now I'm found. 

PRAYER 

Than you Father for keeping me and protecting me and accepting me just the way I am. Most importantly for your arms that are always open and ready to receive me. 

Dear Lord please keep me hidden in You I pray. And please give me the strength to focus only on you I pray in Jesus mighty name. Amen 

Godfidence ....

...Godfidence, how can l explain it, it's better experienced than explained. It's like when an innocent child launches from the sofa into his fathers arms without even considering if he will fall. He just knows "daddy will catch me"

The level of Godfidence (confidence in God) depends on how well we know Him. The more time we stay connected the more assured we are of His sovereignty. Like Daniel said "those that know their God shall be strong and do exploits." Daniel 11v32. 

I want to know Him, I want to be close to Him, I want to be more aware and conscious of His presence. I want to please Him. I'm confident I will, because He said "Keep on asking, and you will receive what you ask for. Keep on seeking, and you will find. Keep on knocking, and the door will be opened to you. Matthew 7v7. 

PRAYER

Dear Father, come into my heart, condition it to keep on seeking after you. Grant unto me Dear Lord the grace to know you. Hide not yourself from me that I may be able to boldly say I know my God. Help me to seek you daily and draw close to you. Thank you for promising to never leave me or forsake me. I ask In Jesus mighty name. Amen. 

Rock Bottom

Just when I think the worst is here, that I  have really gone far, I have strayed out of His love I realize, God is just a call away. 

...just a whisper away, just a prayer away.

He says "Can a mother ever forget her nursing child? Can she feel no love for the child she has borne? But even if that were possible, I will not forget you! 

See, I have written your name on the palm of my hands." Ish49v15&16. 

(He said this to the children of Israel even after all their misdeeds.)

There truly is no life outside of Him, not only because He is God and the giver of life but He is LIFE!!! He leads, He directs He protects, defends and sustains. I sometimes may not always understand or agree with His ways but I have learnt that it is important that I must trust in Him! 

My sufferings, most times un-necessary are usually because I loose focus of Him and begin to trust in my own understanding or focus on the problems and then, it's only a matter of time before troublesome worries follow. Then,I try to fix the mess I have made of my self. Relying on short lived fixes just to take my mind off the mess I have created. But in the end I feel tired, worn out and totally spent. It's not a lie when He said those that wait on The Lord shall renew their strength. 

My sufferings are so un-necessary and avoidable if I can only put my trust always in Him and stay focused because He promised "those who put their trust in me will never be put to shame." Isaiah 49v23

But The Lord says "For I will fight those who fight you." v25. 

... And what He promises, He fulfills. 

There truly is no need to worry. The struggle should not be with situations that face me but rather to receive the grace to stay focused on Him. 

There's no rest outside Jesus; only a long goose chase. He is the only one that truly gives peace in the midst of the storm, peace that surpasses all human understanding because He is the Prince of Peace!! He said "Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.Matt 11v28. 

I need rest, I need peace I have journeyed and I'm back with a lesson well learnt. There's no life without Jesus!!

PRAYER

Thank you Lord for your ever open arms. Your Steadfast Love is strong enough to always receive me even when I'm wrong. Your mercy is enduring. Your righteousness covers my sin and shame and your Faithfulness is trust worthy.

I searched but couldn't find a Love so pure, so true and satisfying.

I surrender all today. Forgive my sins please Lord, help me to stand. Strengthen me in You. 

Thank you Lord. You are awesome. There is no one like You!!!!

Keep marching...

His Faithfullness is amazing to us His children. Sometimes I feel by virtue of my own complacency and laziness that God has given up on me or is angry with me. Right there and then, my walk of faith seems gloomy. But He promised never to leave of forsake us; and even when there was no reason for hope, Abraham kept hoping... Romans 4v18. 

To my own eyes it may seem like I'm not making advancement in my walk of faith in Christ or I'm not making progress Spiritually and I'm never going to make much out of my calling and search for God... But the above scripture pulls me back up! Telling me that it may not seem like it now, but the end is glorious. 

I won't let my feelings rule me. I'm going to keep on anyway because from experience it so easy to give up when we don't  "feel" like we can make it. I will keep taking those steps not focusing on the hopelessness of the now, but on the goal. I'm going to keep marching forward. The WORD on my lips  and hope in my heart knowing that it's not over yet there's no other way; I have been there. A life without Christ is no life at all.