What Do You Want?

As I sat in my room determined to make the best use of my time in this gift of a New Year and new begining I heard a voice ask me "What Do You Want" and it seemed so clear to me what I wanted.  

To be more focused on what's important to me, to be more consistent in everything I set out to achieve especially in building my relationship with God, to be resilient in perusing my goals not being short sighted and discouraged by temporary setbacks. 

I want to patiently build this year taking each day on purpose without fainting. And at the end, by His grace I want to leave this year better than I started it. 

But after pondering this, I also heard a voice saying "What about what I want from you this year?"

....there was silence and then a hint of worry set in my heart, the reality of the numerous times I failed came to memory, the many time I failed Him, the many times I failed myself, and sadness overtook me as I pondered "what does He want me to do? I know I can do it but will I? Will I do it successfully? I can deal with dissapointing myself but I don't think I could ever deal with disappointing Him.

My heart sank in heaviness but then a flicker of hope, I can lay my fears on Him and trust that He is able to perfect all that concerns me. 

I often think of me, how I feel, what I want to achieve, did I do good? ME!!!

I know that's not a bad thing but I also want to at least know what does HE want from me this year? What will make Him happy and put Him in my heart and plans too. I know the fear if being a let-down is with me but at least He made provision for that because His word says; Give your burdens to the LORD, and he will take care of you. He will not permit the godly to slip and fall. Ps. 55v22. 

PRAYER

Heavenly Father, Lord Almighty thank you so much for making it possible for me to see the New year, I'm truly grateful. 

I have so many dreams and golas for this year Father please Lord I ask for the grace to plan, focus, work hard and achieve these goals. 

I also ask Dear Lord, what would you have me do this year? I pray Father, that you help me know, I ask for the grace and passion to do your will without fear or failure I ask for strength, and for your grace to do your will in this year, I pray in Jesus mighty name! Amen.