When I go wrong...

Just when everything seemed to be going on well, with me and my relationship with God, I feel this sudden pressure a familiar heaviness I can tell it's not from God, It's been plaguing me since Friday, threatening to destabilize and distract me from my goal which is to solidify my relationship with Christ. My mood, my countenance and my routine were disturbed...I prayed, tried hard to resist but I failed and gave in to my past habits...
The struggle is real and even though it seems like a small and harmless error I know without a doubt that I don't feel blessed by it instead I feel ashamed and just don't want to face the fact that I failed.

The Devil is real, he never goes away he tempts again and again especially in areas where we are most vulnerable the Bible says when the devil had finished tempting Jesus, he left him until the next opportunity came (Luke 4v13). He never wants to see us succeed.

However today, even though I feel ashamed and unworthy, I know I have no other hiding place except in Him. Where else will I go to to find forgiveness and restoration? Who will wash my sins away and set me back on the right track? Who will chastise me and keep me from falling? who is not ashamed of me even when I am ashamed of myself?

PRAYER
Heavenly Father, forgive me for I have done wrong, and I have no excuse for my wrong doings. I am deeply sorry and I do not feel proud of myself. I have no one else to run to but You Oh Lord. Forgive me and wash me with your blood. Please remember your promise even though I never want to take undue advantage of it but remember you promised your grace is sufficient for me and that you will never cast me away. Please forgive me and make me whole again. For in Jesus mighty name I pray. Amen.

Ref: John 6v37 All those the Father gives me will come to me, and whoever comes to me I will never drive away.


 




   

Your Love Is Life

I woke up this morning with an overwhelming feeling of gratefulness. It is so obvious how sure God's love is! when I think about his goodness and his faithfulness each day, I'm convinced its not because I am worthy to receive the kind of love that you give. When I go astray you work out a way for me to come back home and not just that but you invite me to come and dine at your table. You feed me till I want no more.

Now you've brought me back home again and each new day you show me new love. I'm humbled by your consistent, persistent and faithful love for me. You set my feet on the right path, leading me where I should go, you put the right thoughts in my mind so I am not confused. You fill my heart with desires so that you bring them to pass. You put your Spirit in me so that I do not stand alone, You protect me that I fulfill all you created me to be.

When I strayed, even though I was alive I was dead... but now, you made me find my way home you feed me with The Bread of Life the very Life of Jesus Christ and now I am alive. I am alive to say Thank you. Thank you my Lord thank you for another day.

PRAYER
Thank you Father for your love today, thank you for keeping me in you despite my shortcomings. I humbly ask today that I live in your house all the days of my life and that my heart continues to be open so you teach me how to live and lead me on the right path (Psalm 27).

Help me to love you with all my heart all my soul and all my mind (Mathew 22v37-39) and to love my neighbours as my self. Grant unto me purity of heart and purge me of negative attitudes and the wrong mindsets I have picked up along the way.

Help me so my light shines that I manifest the glory you put in me. Help me Lord for I pray in Jesus mighty name. Amen.

Mr. Fear

Yesterday in the course of my day I was faced with some challenges, my son was crying, he didn't want to go to school he had some challenges he didn't want to face at school and it broke my heart, suddenly a knock on my door, I looked. It was Mr. Fear.  I thank God I had woken up early in the morning to set the tone of my day. I had prayed and received strength so I was able to speak to the situation saying it wasn't welcome even though Mr. Fear was still knocking on my door.
I dropped him off at school and continued to pray in my heart.

Hours later at the library preparing for an exam I will be writing in June, I was having difficulty understanding some parts of my studies... moments later a knock on my door I checked, it was a familiar face, Mr. Fear. Hmm I thought... he doesn't get tired of knocking.

It was night this time and I was on my bed, reviewing what I had read earlier, when I heard another knock... louder this time and he was he was speaking saying things!
You see, the first two times he knocked I ignored him, instead the first time I spoke what I wanted even though I was a bit upset and the second time I reminded myself that I can do all things because I have the active Spirit of God inside me but this time, the knock was so loud and I must admit he disturbed me a bit but I just went to bed, not paying him any attention. 

This morning I opened my Bible and My Lord made me smile He gave me new confidence he said;

The Lord is my light and my salvation—

whom shall I fear?

The Lord is the stronghold of my life—

of whom shall I be afraid?

When the wicked advance against me

to devour me,

it is my enemies and my foes

who will stumble and fall.

Though an army besiege me,

my heart will not fear;

though war break out against me,

even then I will be confident... (Psalm 27)

I took it all in line after line and my understanding and awareness of His presence was reinforced, He is with me no matter what or how many challenges  comes my way He is my strength meaning He fights on my behalf if I let him. When Mr. Fear and his hosts come against me, they will stumble and fall. 

It was then I also realized that Mr. Fear doesn't have any powers over me or my door. If he did he wont be knocking, he'd probably break down the door instead. He only has a loud voice and disturbs a lot with his non stop knocking. Will he ever go away, I guess not but one things for sure! Whenever he comes knocking I WILL NEVER OPEN.

PRAYER

Thank you everlasting Father because all power belongs to You and for your promise to me instructing me not to fear because You oh Lord are my Light, my Salvation, my Stronghold and for this Lord I am grateful. As I keep this in my mind today I ask that you strengthen every weak and weary heart Oh Lord I pray in Jesus mighty name Amen.

  

When we need direction

Whoever we ask directions from, whenever we meet a dead end, most times has the authority to influence the course of our journey (or our lives) and we are vulnerable to the persons level of knowledge and precision.

Today is one of those days I need direction in many areas of my life. I need a clear picture upon which I can anchor my faith and begin to visualize so that I can see and have the hope of a destination.

Whenever I need help and direction l am glad to say, I look up.

I will lift up mine eyes unto the hills, from whence cometh my help.

My help cometh from the LORD, which made heaven and earth.

He will not suffer thy foot to be moved: he that keepeth thee will not slumber.

Behold, he that keepeth Israel shall neither slumber nor sleep. (Psalm 121v1-4).

PRAYER

Heavenly Father, I worship you because you are the almighty, all powerful, all knowing God and I bow to your authority. I humbly come before your throne in the name of Jesus asking that you show me the way I should go. Open my eyes that I may begin to see your plans for me concerning my children and my life. I look to you almighty God because you are my Father and all wisdom belongs to you and I am glad to be at your mercy because you are a good God. Help me today oh Lord I pray. Amen 

Speak Life

I thank God today for awakening in me with great consciousness, the need to speak life. To be mindful of what I say because my words carry life and I am able to shape my life into whatever I want it to be by the words I speak.

Today I will put it into practice, to speak good into existence, to use my mouth to get me to where I want to be, to use my words to get out of every situation that holds me back.

My words carry life because life dwells richly on the inside of me. Jesus the way the truth and the LIFE dwells on the inside of me from today, I will watch what I say. I'd rather sit in silence than say something bad.

I will put this into practice and see where this takes me...


PRAYER 

Heavenly Father, help me to be mindful of my words that I only speak Life and goodness and just as you have placed it upon my consciousness I ask in Jesus name that I function in this new awareness all the time to bring about in me a successful Life in Jesus mighty name. Amen. 

Refs:

1. The tongue has the power of life and death, and those who love it will eat its fruit (Proverbs 18v21
2. When we put bits into the mouths of horses to make them obey us, we can turn the whole animal. Or take ships as an example. Although they are so large and are driven by strong winds, they are steered by a very small rudder wherever the pilot wants to go. Likewise, the tongue is a small part of the body, but it makes great boasts. Consider what a great forest is set on fire by a small spark. The tongue also is a fire... (James 3v3-6).

I'm Ready

Early this year I had a thought so sure, so profound that this year will be my year of perfection and as I continued to ponder on it, the thought began to grow and grow...

"I will live this year on purpose to my fullest potential, this year will mark the beginning of a major change for excellence in my life for the rest of my many years on the earth, this year my focus is clear and consistent......"

The more I pondered the more I realized the enormity of the dream/thought and it just dawned on me that, that was Gods will and desire for me. He was putting it in my heart to bring it to pass in my life. I'm sure of it because as far as I've studied and known, God usually gives us dreams way bigger than out wildest imagination.. I guess because He is a Great God.

I spent the whole of the month wrapping my mind around the thought, trying to get familiar with it and how to go about it. THIS WAS HUGE!!! It was a promise made to me from eternity past before I was even born...  and I was humbled to be a recipient.

From experience I know that promises require effort to materialize. I know God has done his part concerning this promise, giving me all I need to make the dream come true (and even putting the dream in my consciousness)... now it's all up to me to play my part and birth this dream into reality... and after all the pondering and wondering, I'm ready 


PRAYER
Dear Lord, I'm humbled by your love for me that you promised wonderful things to me even before I was born. What an awesome, loving God you are. Thank you.
And now oh Lord I receive your grace through the help of your Spirit to birth this dream into reality. I understand the part I have to play and I am willing and ready for this higher calling, for this level of excellence. I am ready to be ALL you have called me to be. I receive strength for every area of weakness, focus for every distraction and discipline in Jesus mighty name. Amen.  

 

The Way, The Truth and The Life

 Before I went to bed at night I made up my mind wake up and have quiet time. I made sure it was the last thing I thought about before I slept so that it would be the first thing on my mind when I woke up.

Thank God, it was. I noticed as I read the word ready to receive everything He had to offer me this morning/day, I had this awareness, like an overwhelming assurance that; as I have looked and continue to look into the Book of Life, I am guaranteed Life and not just life but an Abundance of Life. What an awareness! What an assurance!! What a blessing!!!

 It was in this consciousness that I got up to actually write about this experience; perhaps so as to grave it upon my memory, to encourage myself to always fix my eyes on Him knowing that it's possible to have an abundance of life as long as I live in Him.

You see the truth is I get distracted by the excitement and sensation of my environment because of this, I take my eyes off "The Life" and as a result, it's only a matter of time before I find myself lost, empty, vulnerable and spent. I want an exceptional life. A life lived to it's full potential, a life lived on purpose to fulfill what God created me to be. It occurred to me that I not only have to be mindful where I look for inspiration and excitement consciously or otherwise but I cannot make it without God. Yes, this has been proven time and time and again in my life. 


I decided this year was going to be my best year ever, a year that would mark the beginning of me living to my maximum potential, a year where God is not just part of the plan but is the primary focus. A year of focus and excellence the year I venture out of mediocrity. A year where I obtain ALL the blessings God has laid for me knowing that I can loose this blessings by not being in His presence to actually know what the blessings are to actually receive them. This is the year of great achievements and giant strides a year I shed my old habits for new ones a year of great potential and I am certain I can't do it without Him.

I would not let tardiness get in my way. I have to be strong and focused. Focused on The Life.

PRAYER
Dear Father please keep me rooted in you for I cannot do without you. Strengthen me through your Spirit so that I become who I need to become to achieve all that you have placed in my heart to accomplish this year. Thank you father for the assurance of your guidance and presence for you promised "you will never leave me of forsake me" it is with this understanding I thank you with all my heart. In Jesus name I pray.