Time wasting

Hello Dairy, 

It's been long, I know, a lot has happened I wish I wrote down.... I haven't been on fire for Christ that much lately to say the truth but that doesn't go without saying that I know He is always with me. 

Today I want to talk about time wasting. I woke up this morning at 3.45am and I picked up my phone which has now become a habit and I began to scroll through social media. I had more important things to do.. And just like that one solid hour went by...

I've wasted much more time than that in the past but this particular hour wasted felt like days wasted. Maybe because these days, time for me has all of a sudden become so precious. 

Yesterday, I was upset and destabilized for hours. Someone hurt my feelings. And when I think of it, it felt like I really lost a lot. 

So right here right now, I want to make conscious efforts not to allow myself waste time. There's so much to achieve and time keeps ticking. I want to invest my time on what really matters the most- Fellowship with God, reading, studying and most of all building up myself.  

It's refreshing being back and I'll like to end today's entry with a little prayer from my heart. 

PRAYER. 

Dear Father, 

there's no one like you. I appreciate you because you are awesome and mighty and nothing is impossible with you. That's so awesome!!! I bless your name. Dear Father I need your help, teach me to use my time wisely, rightly and carefully knowing time is so precious.

Help me put you first, please everyday come into my heart and refresh me. For every disappointment, please encourage me. Instead of hate fill me with love, where my mind is filthy with the ugliness of bitterness fill me with purity of heart. But above all may I continue to please you and find favor in your sight. 

Let me not walk out of my room without your covering favor and grace. Use me to bless others today and strengthen me for today's work. Begin a new work in me  for I pray in the name of your precious Son, Jesus Christ. 

Amen. 

You are my hiding place

Sometimes, when I consider all my faults and shortcomings I feel so sad and depressed. My limitations and constant repetition of the same old mistakes, honestly I get so depressed. 

But, when I also consider the one who is perfect in every way, mighty, powerful, glorious and  great. The one who cannot be defined by words because of His awesome largesse. To think that he is here for me and with me and He loves me dearly, I can trust in and depend on Him because He is faithful. 

I just run and I hide myself in Him. I hide my faults, failures and shortcomings. I hide myself early in the morning. I hide in His glory and grace and in the fidelity of His character. I hide myself in Him. 

When I am in Him I am safe, strong and confident. I know I can do ALL THINGS because His Spirit doesn't give fear. I hide in Him. 

The days I strayed away, I remember the fear, loneliness confusion and vulnerability that consumed me! Oh how I thank Him for His love that calls me back. It brings me back time and time and again setting my feet on solid rock and steadying me as I go. 

Today I hide myself in You Lord. I pray that tomorrow when I wake I'll do the same again, and HIDE MYSELF IN YOU!!!

I AM WILLING

"Lord if you are willing you can heal me and make me clean" Jesus reached out and touched him. "I am willing" he said "Be Healed" Luke 5v12-13. 

Sometimes I feel like God is just tired of me, because I don't always get things right. I couldn't be more wrong!!! 

"Never! Can a mother forget her nursing child? Can she feel no love for the child she has borne? But even if that were possible, I will never forget you! Isaiah49v15.  

I woke up feeling like God can't possibly care for me. But I thank Him for His word. It lifted me and filled me. No matter what God can Never leave or forsake me. 

What a wonderful feeling. Thank you Father. Thank you Jesus. Thank you Holy Spirit. 

Searched all over....

I've always wanted a best friend, someone with whom I could share my time and love, my strengths and weaknesses, in whom I could trust, rely and confide in. Someone I could be completely honest and comfortable with. 

I go the extra mile to be nice, generous and friendly but then I realized that what I was searching for was more than a best friend. My heart was searching for Christ. 

I guess I was searching in the wrong places, I don't know. I guess I felt I needed physical companionship. Maybe I didn't even know what I wanted... 

But one thing is for sure there was an emptiness that needed to be filled. I searched and searched till I lost track of my God. Used, abused, taken advantage of, disappointed, disgusted with my self, sad, tired confused and defeated I decided to invest some time in his presence. 

I'm glad that no matter how many times I fail or fall He is always ready to pick me up, and show me His love. 

It's true I was lost. But now I'm found. 

PRAYER 

Than you Father for keeping me and protecting me and accepting me just the way I am. Most importantly for your arms that are always open and ready to receive me. 

Dear Lord please keep me hidden in You I pray. And please give me the strength to focus only on you I pray in Jesus mighty name. Amen