Redirect, Restore, Renew.

My brother once said 'Life is like a driving a car, going some place. You have to make conscious efforts to keep in lane but sometimes you loose concentration, veer off and it's up to you to take control and get back on track'.

I noticed as a person I seem to struggle with handling more than one project at a time and in trying to pursue a dream I gradually lost total focus on my desire to seek God with all my heart. So many thoughts and emotions going through me now but one thing I am sure of without a doubt is I LOVE GOD AND HE LOVES ME TOO! therefore all things are working for my good.

I have learnt many lessons in the process some of which are, to always be on the alert, because the Devil uses our desires to derail and distract us from the things of God; it doesn't always have to be a bad thing but as long as it keeps you somewhat 'engaged', he will use it. In my case, it was my love for fitness.. while this isn't such a bad thing, but it kept me 'busy' for months researching about weight loss, working out for hours, ogling constantly at transformation pictures all of which took my time desires and emotion.

The second of which is, when you fall, rise up and move on.  Don't dwell on the fall. The ability to bounce back and the opportunity to start all over again is a gift from God Almighty. Lastly, when you have seem to lost it and made a mess of everything and by everything I mean keeping the faith and our relationship with God, or when the Holy Spirit prompts you that you are loosing it, thats not the time to self loathe because that is literarily falling down and staying there, a plan of the devil to keep you condemned  when this happens its time to acknowledge the fall and seek help! Cry out to God for redirection, to restore your mind and to renew the right Spirit within you.

I have come to realize that falling down is part of my Christian journey. Though I don't like it, it's a reality it may not necessarily be that I did something wrong it may just be that I haven't learnt to walk run and soar. This is a place I really don't like to find myself but I have learnt not to loose sight of the Master when trying to pursue a dream. I must work extra hard God shouldn't be put on the back burner just because an interest arises...    

PRAYER

Father Lord, 

please forgive me for going astray. Forgive me for not spending time with you. I am spent, thirsty, lost and lonely as a result and all I need right now is to come back home. I am forced to think that I am too much of a disappointment but your word ever so true ever so comforting says 'a bruised reed he will not break, and a smoldering wick he will not snuff out'. Matt 12v20. Dear Father keep please I am ready and I am willing please redirect my steps, please restore me and renew the right Spirit within me, cause me to abide in you and keep me from falling again. I'm sorry Lord please forgive me for I pray in Jesus Mighty Name. Amen.